Initial biopsy showed a slow-growing cancer, later this week the final results will come in.

Even though I don't have a family I was never really alone. But I still long for that family feeling of just holding on to someone, touching them,letting the tears tumble down.

There are so many stories of people who go through tremendous difficult times. Today I just heard of where a Navy football player went through such adversidy but continues to succeed beyond will put it this way beyond, beyond. But he could walk and he didn't have to rely on someone to feed him or change his diaper.

Today I have heard of two stories from two people who have big families and incredible support and it kills me. I am so alone.

There is a store, a natural foods store, who has a huge sign that says health is wealth and I will add family is wealth and if you have both of them you have it over Donald Trump or Oprah.

If you think this is just wallowing in self-pity and think that there are so many people worse off than me I rage at you. I rage.

Goodnight.