Been awhile since I've been blogging. I miss it but I have been so tired and self consumed that I couldn't bear hearing myself whining and dwelling in self pity.
I am reading a self-help book by E. Tolle and am finding some truths that if I can use them will change my life. Basically, it is accepting life for what it is, and stop fighting against my circumstances now and the memories of the past. This man writes about living in the now, in the present moment and accepting without judging. I have fought all my life. It is all I have ever known and I think the time has come to stop fighting.
It is what it is. I need to learn how to live a totally different way. I need to believe that I can do it.
To all of you who have been e-mailing me, thank you. You are part of the change. You are already giving me a second chance. I may sound cryptic but that is only because I don't completely understand it myself.
Be.
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It's all about pushing ego aside to become "aware". It's about finding your "purpose" in life. I think one of your purposes Matillda (after reading many of your posts is to make OTHERS aware of their lives and how good they have it and to stop their complaining and LIVE their lives to their fullest!) You are a beacon my sister. You may be confused sometimes but remember, it's ok to be confused about where you are at....it's all part of the opportunity of being a spirit living this HUMAN experience.
Life is rough for you but you are still in there fighting. Good for you. Your blog is an inspiration. Reading it helped put my two broken legs and sprained neck in perspective!
Zane